I went into hiding through most of the deployment. It isn't that joy didn't happen. Our lives did not stop twirling and we even giggled our way through the tough times. The tricky thing about being a military wife is happiness can be guilt coated. It is hard to fully embrace the laughter when every belly laugh is one missed. When it comes down to it moments are best not just lived but shared. Since I couldn't really share those moments with the love of my life I didn't share them with you. I would love to tell you that I made the most of it. The truth is I wallowed in pity for a good portion of the time. We splashed, tickled and cried our way through the year and made it through the deployment one Popsicle at a time. We pushed the sadness back with tootsie rolls, grandparents, caffeine and all access play dough passes. Now we're back together and living life full force. Thank you for your words of encouragement. It was comforting to know that you all were here and just waiting for me to shake the grumpies off and get back to business.
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WELCOME BACK!!!!
Welcome back! And welcome home to Johnny. I've kept you in my thoughts Jen, and hoped so much that you would find strength and courage and lots of support. I understand your reservation about sharing this part of your life. It's too deep, too much... but we have cared about you still. I'm thankful for a safe return and so happy for your sweet girls to have their daddy come home and for their mommy to feel whole again.
Glad you're back. :)
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